John Reuben I Pictured It lyrics

I Pictured It by John Reuben

I Pictured It lyrics

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Have you ever felt something you couldn't explain 
No definition no name just a feeling 
No definition no name 
I looked at her she looked back at me 
Her face looked different than I pictured it 

And then there was me analyzing life more than I was living 
Anything possible good I'll destroy before the chance was ever given 
See if I never have anything I'll never have to lose anything
But then again if I never had anything worth losing 
I guess I lost everything either way 
You could say pain will become a result from both 
So actually I'm giving in to the very thing that I fear the most 
Losing it all everything completely unaware that a fear of failure 
Was the one thing that was taking me there 
Fear of life fear of love fear of man failure to relate 
How I and God and His voice to me would even begin to translate 
So I wait to escape this condition of rationalizing my own destruction 
But I keep on listening to voices that don't deserve my discussion 

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She's an artist alright 
Capable of the most abstract stuff imaginable 
And it's made personal for me 
See she uses my mind as the canvas to create her manipulated perspectives on life 
So I'm the only one that can even see what I see 
Until the art hits the heart and begins to take an outward expression 
Kind of like an involuntary confession of the soul 
And who's in control 
And how many minds have been painted by the hands of crafty irrationality
And have different paintings of reality hanging on the walls in a fictional gallery 

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Actions speak louder than words 
And I've come to find that I've been building on a design 
That could only be found in my mind 
Blind to the force behind what caused my accuracy to be tainted 
Cuz my mind was smart enough to manipulate itself 
But not smart enough to figure out it was being manipulated 

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